Here is my honest heart: I frequently feel like a failure. I don't really know a homeschool mom that does NOT feel like a failure on a regular basis. We struggle with this a lot.
This past Monday, I was not a good example. I did not handle a personal situation very well at all and lots of proverbial feathers flew around the house. People's hearts got hurt, and well, it just stunk all around for everyone. Sometimes life is so very hard.
God sends us friends that speak the truth to us in love. "Out of the blue" (as they say when really we mean, Providentially) a dear friend called me. "You have been on my mind a lot today. What is going on?" I just opened up and sobbed. I feel like a failure all the time, at everything. Nothing I do is right. I am so tired of fighting for everything that's important. I am so tired of feeling like I cannot do anything right.
Did she tell me I was a failure? No. She told me it was a lie. She encouraged me by telling me the truth that life is hard, but that the way I was viewing the situation was not the truth. Christ has equipped me with all I need for life and godliness. His Spirit dwells within me and directs my path.
"You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore."
Life will be full of hard things, and I will sometimes do things the wrong way. I will sometimes really disappoint my children, my husband, my Crew team, and pretty much anyone that knows me.
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
But I am more than a conqueror through Christ--because of what He has done for me.
"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."
There will be days of heartache in the future, I know that. However, I am a child of the King and I am forgiven through Christ because it is He that has paid it all.
1 John 4:4
"...Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world."
I am not a failure. You are not a failure. He is all sufficient.
"Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy, to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen."